开心？不开心？happy?unhappy?

我到现在都搞不懂我是应该开心还是不开心。。

有时开心，有时不开心的。。咳。。。

这个应该是最短的post。。

没有心情再写下去了。。

关于这个post的事情，明天再告诉你们。。

再见。。

i really don't know whether i am happy or unhappy until now...

sometimes happy,sometimes unhappy..haiz...

i think this is the most shortest post..

i doesn't have the mood to continue writing...

about this post..i will tell you all tomorrow..

bye..

+~+ChaoZ,Himawari Onna+~+

韩国歌，听上瘾了。。korean song...addicted...

不懂为什么。。这几天，听韩国歌听上瘾了。。

听着DBSK唱的Summerdream，很象会很开心。。

不懂为什么。。嘻嘻。。

会不会是因为他有summer这个字。。让我想起summercamp时的欢乐。。

那时真的很开心。。

那时是大概六月多。。我也忘记几时了。。

我只记得。。那时的我没有烦恼，很开心的在玩。。。

可是现在的我。。很多烦恼，很不开心的，在写部落格。。

那时，我还没有认识到他，对，就是Form 5的他。。

我不会讲他名字出来。。

相信有听过这个故事的，都知道他是谁。。（我认识他这个故事）

头头认识他时，我很开心。。

可是。。这个是一个恶梦的开始。。

不久之后。。我们吵架了。。他的朋友就开始来烦我了。。

我真的很希望不是他指示的。。

而这时。。恶梦发生了。。我们吵架过后的第一天开始，

我就倒霉到现在。。我说什么。。朋友就顶什么。。

每次都顶到我无话可说。。

然后就认识了一个，对我很好的人。。女生来的。。

他要求当我的乾姐姐。。我答应了。。

其实，我做错了。。我不应该答应。。

我答应了过后。。

他就破坏我和我朋友之间的友情。。

我两个小学朋友，都跟我吵了。。

所以，我可以说是，我几倒霉就几倒霉。。

不要误会。。我不是要说他(form 5的)带霉运给我。。

只是，我跟一个人吵架，就弄到我的命运酱倒霉。。

我宁愿没有认识过他。。

i don't know why..these days..i listen to the korean song until i'm addicted to it already...

listens to Summerdream that DBSK sings..i feel like its full of happiness..

i don't know why...hehe..

maybe it's because of it has Summer this word..

it makes me memorize the happiness of summercamp..

it was really happy that time..

it was about June that time..i also forgotten when it is..

i only remember..that time..i am without worries,very happily,playing there..

but now..i'm full of worries,very unhappily,writing blog...

that time..i haven't know her yet..yes..the form 5 her..

i won't say her name here..

i believe the ones who knows about this story will know who i mean..

(the story that i know her）

at first when i know her..i was very happy...

but..this is the start of a scary dream...

not long after that,we argued..

her friends started to bother me..

i hope this is not what she ask her friends to do..

and this time..the dream started...

the second day after we argued that time start..

my bad life is until now...

i say what..my friend say back what..

make until I have nothing to say..

then i know a people who is very good to me..it's a girl...

she wants to be my sister..*fake*i accepted...

actually..i did wrongly..

i should not accept it...

after i accept...

she started to break the relationship between me and my friends..

my 2 primary school friends..argued with me..

so..i can say as..got how unlucky..I am that unlucky..

don't misunderstand..i'm not saying that she(form 5 one) brings all the bad luck to me..

it's just..after i argue with her,my life is then so bad luck...

so..i wish i din't even know her in the first place...

+~+Adios+~+

+~+Himawari Onna+~+

我的心声。。。my feelings...

以下，是我选的一首歌。。

他可以算是代表我的心声。。

那天我扬起帆

想看看未知的海
心里很多话想说说不出来
虽然我脸上看不出来

天空一样蔚蓝 却换了多少云彩
那时的你让我幸福百分百
是否为我等待

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
我痛说不出来

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱 都在

站在你的门外
我却幸福在徘徊
心里很多话想说说不出来
但我想你一定都明白

时间过的好快
[时间过的好快]
想念却不曾更改
现在的你是否幸福百分百
我应该怎么猜

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你泪停不下来
你知道我依赖多不想say goodbye
我痛说不出来

我知道我的爱一直都会存在
没有你快乐都停摆
某一天我期待和你笑的灿烂
回头看爱 都在x2

爱一直存在

我真的很希望，我的爱，一直存在。。

[这是我用话语歌来表达我第一个心声。。]

the song below..it talks about what i want....

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Been a fool, girl I know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh i stay up til you're next to me
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Remember telling my boys that I'd never fall in love, love, love, love
You used to think I'd never find a girl I could trust, trust, trust, trust
And then you walked into my life and it was all about us, us, us, us
But now I'm sitting here thinking I messed the whole thing up, up, up, up

Been a fool (fool), girl I know (know)
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time (time), you'll change your mind (mind)
Now looking back i wish i could rewind

Because i can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before (Because it)
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah (Ah), Feels like insomnia ah ah

Ah, i just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love because

I can't sleep til you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more (without you no more)
Oh i stay up til you're next to me (to me)
Til this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah
Feels like insomnia ah ah, Feels like insomnia ah ah

i really wish i can rewind my life...

[this is I use english song to tell my second feeling..]

第一，我希望，我的爱一直会存在。。

第二，我希望，我的生命，可以重演。。

first..i hope my love will always be there...

second..i hope i can rewind/replay my life again....

我跟他说，我喜欢他。。

我希望，我的爱一直会存在，在他身旁。。

我做错了选择。。

我希望，我可以在做一次，当天的选择。。

重新来过。。

i told **, i like **..

i hope,my love will always be there,right by ** side...

i made the wrong choice...

i hope,i can choose again,the road that day..

and go for a new life..

谢谢。。

thank you...

+~+LoVe,XiiaoDaii+~+

辛苦的一晚~a bad night~

昨天晚上，我新加坡的姑婆太来我们家。。

他带他的孙女一起来。。

他孙女是我的姑姑。。

每次来我们都没有一觉是好睡的。。

每天晚上冲凉，就把头发洗到湿湿。。

弄的满地都湿湿。。

然后又每次去我哥哥房间粘着他，玩电脑。。

我真的是很讨厌他！。。

可是他怎样，辈分还是大过我。。虽然我们同年纪。。

可是妈咪常常说。。“辈分比自己大的要尊重”。。

“年纪比自己老，辈分比自己大的，的更加要尊重”

我有试着去忍他。。可是我真的不能忍。。

我爸爸的姐姐，也就是我的姑姑。。

也就是比他年纪大的。。

他叫我去骂他。。我当然是去啊。。

我吓他说，“你再不回来房间，我就打给我爸爸。。”

（我爸爸门锁着，我进不到。。只好用电话）

我一回到房间，我就打给爸爸了。。

我刚按call，他就进来了。。

我在想，*还蛮快的嘛。。*

也算了。。我就去找周公了（睡觉）

今天早上，我还没醒来。。

他就已经醒了。。

还是一醒来就跑去我哥哥房间。。

我真的是很气！

我哥哥要去做工的！不像你！可以玩一整天。。

虽然我也有玩。。可是没你酱过分。。

我也是有做工的好不好！你非要弄到我们不能睡。。

害我没精神做工，还是害我哥哥连工都做不成？

算了啦。。说你也是白费力气的。。

咳。。

Yesterday night..my Singapore GrandAunty came to our house for a visit..

she brought her granddaughter together with her...

her granddaughter is my aunt...

everytime her granddaughter comes for a visit..we won't have a good night sleep...

every night,she bath at night and she will wash her hair until all wet..

the water drops make my room floor all wet...

after that she will go to my brother's room and stick with my brother while playing computer..

I really really hate her...

but however..she is my aunt..although same age..my mum always tell me..

"when a people's seniority is bigger than ourself..we must respect them.."

"their age older than ourself ,their seniority bigger than ourself, we must respect them more..."

i tried to be patient...but i just can't...

my father's elder sister..is also my aunt..

is also elder than her...

she ask me to scold her..how can i not to do it?

i sacred her and say..

"if you still doesn't want to come back to bedroom,i will call my father.."

(because my father's room is lock,so i need to call by phone)

when i went back to my own room,i just press the call button,

she came back..i was wondering..*wow..so fast*

its ok then..i went to sleep..

then this morning..i haven't even wake up yet..

she woke up already and went to my brother's room straight away..

i am really angry that time..

my brother needs to go to work!not like you..

you can stay home and play all day long!

although i do play..but i didn't play until so terrible ok!

i need to work also..

you must make until we can't sleep then you are happy...

make me have no energy to work..or want to make my brother can't even success his work??

fine..it's just wasting my energy to say you already..

haiz..

+~+AdioSa+~+

+~+XiiaoDaii+~+

爱。。Love..

爱情是不能勉强的

喜欢一个人。。就希望对方，过的幸福，快乐的日子

自己就满足了。。对吗？

愿意为喜欢的人牺牲。。是伟大吗？

也许是。。也许不是。。

有些人觉得。。拥有对方。。才代表深爱对方。。

有些人却认为相反。。只要对方开心。。就可以了。。

我到现在还搞不明白。。为什么世界上会有“爱”这个东西呢？

而又为什么，世界上有“喜欢”和“幸福”这些东西。。

咳。。或许我跟他的遇见跟相识，是老天爷注定的。。

而我喜欢他。。也是老天爷，帮我们安排的。。

我在想。。如果我没认识过他，

没进过武及吉打女校（不会写）。。

我现在的生活，会是怎样的呢？？

如果当初，我是进别的学校。。我的生活会好还是坏呢？

如果是坏。。是比现在坏还是比现在好一点呢？

心里的问题，解的开吗？

有人回答我吗？

在这间学校，我认识了很多很要好的朋友。。

也跟某些朋友吵架了。。

我们会好会吗？会象以前那样，

每天粘在一起聊天，拍照，玩电话，

唱歌，听歌，说笑话之类的吗？

我真的很想念以前那些日子。。小学六年纪的日子。。

很想念。。很想念。。

我们还可以象以前那样吗？？

可以吗？？？

我看，你们的答案，是不可以吧？

我只想过着稳定的生活，为什么终是不可以？

或许我的命运以定了。。也不能再改了。。

“爱一个人，只要看到对方幸福，快乐，就可以了。。”

这句话。。我相信。。

 

不好意思，这个post没有英语翻译。。应为我只会用话语来表达。。

sorry..this post have no english translate..because..

i just know how to use chinese to tell my meaning...

 

+~+ChaoZ+~+

+~+XiiaoDaii+~+

倒霉啊~So unlucky~~

昨天开始，我的生活变的更加倒霉了！！昨天晚上。。

超多人来烦我的！

烦到我12.10分回房间了，也睡不着。。

躺倒1.30分才睡。。

我的生活就酱子被他们控制住了。。

今天也很倒霉。。一早起来，阵身痛的。。

刚刚去洗衣服。。又刚刚下雨。。

阵身都湿透了。。咳。。

没有一天能过的安稳吗？？

一定要我过这样的生活吗？？

我不要这样的生活，可以吗？

我真的很辛苦了啦！！放过我好吗？

我已经没有去烦你们了。。为什么你们的朋友们，

就不能停止烦我？？！！

为了这件事。。我被很多人骂了！！尤其是你们的朋友！

就不能放过我吗？？停！！好吗？？？停！！！

这件事情，也让我知道。。原来我的朋友。。是很关心我的。。

很多朋友都想帮我骂他们。。可是。。我骗他们说我没事了。。

事情，解决了。。就只有我一个朋友。。他对我很好。。

他还叫他的乾哥哥来帮我。。真的很谢谢你们。。

讲真的。。他怎样知道我部落格的link的？？

他流言在我部落格的时候。。他会在想什么？？

我真的很奇怪。。他到底是怎样知道的？？我有没跟他讲！

奇怪。。。他现在 在想什么呢？

有在想那个post吗？？掺了啦。。

哎哟。。。。。

Started from yesterday..my life is ruined..

yesterday night..a whole lot bunch of peoples came to bother me...

until when i get back to my room to get some sleep,i can't..

i went back to my room around 12.10..

i lay on my bed..i just turning around n round..

thinking of the conversation I've had..

until about 1.30..i slept...

my life is just like that...being controlled by them...

its also very unlucky today...by the time i wake up..

my whole body seems to be very hating me..

so pain...

just now when i washing my clothes,the rain come pouring...

my whole body is all wet...haiz....

not even a day i can pass with happiness??

must i have a life like this one??

i don't want this kind of life..can i?

i've already walk this life for so hard!can you just leave me alone??!!

i've already stop bothering you all..why the friends of you all

just can't stop bothering me??!!

because of this..i've already get scolded many times..

expecially from your friends!!

can't you all just leave me alone??!!STOP!!!

can it??!!STOP!!!!

because of this..i also know that my friends

are all very caring for me...a lot of my friends who saw my blog

say that they want to help me..

but i lied to them and say i'm fine....

it has already settled...

but just one of my friend..she just help me..she even ask her "brother"

to help me...really very thanks to them...

actually...how ** know my blog link??!!

by the time ** comment on my cbox...what was ** thinking??

i'm still wondering..how ** know it in the first place??i didn't tell **!

weird..what ** will be thinking by now??

is ** thinking about the post??OMG....

uh-oh....

+~+ChaoZ+~+

+~+XiiaoDaii+~+

假期~holiday~

现在已经是假期了。。这个假期让我有一种很不开心的感觉
不懂为什么。。可能是应为想念他吧。。
可是我的爱 他都不接受 我为什么还要去想他呢。。
这样 会让我增加痛苦而已。。
那天我问他，是不是喜欢“他” 他说，不知道
我们都已经吵架了。。我都盼望不到什么奇迹了。。
而且，奇迹永远都不会出现在我的生活里。。
我跟他这一次，吵得最长的了。。不懂为什么 他还不肯原谅我
现在又有一个跟我完全没有关系的人 说喜欢我。。要我做他的女朋友。。
我跟他说我不要。。应为我喜欢的那个人 还没有原谅我。。
他一天不原谅我，我都不会去想别的。。
我这样做，傻吗？或许真的很傻。。可是这是为了我自己。。值得的。。

我有朋友问我，为什么喜欢他。。我说我不知道。。可能是应为feel。。
一见到他，我就会很紧张。。不懂要做什么酱。。只要看到他笑，我就开心了。。
而如果看到他生气，伤心。。我就会不开心。。
这是什么感觉啊？
可是只要我在我一班朋友的身旁。。我无论多不开心。。他们都会弄到我很开心。。
真的很谢谢我这班朋友们。。谢谢，燕芳，诗琪，可雯，淑玲，美可。。
这些都是每次弄我开心的朋友。。还有很多是比她们的“功劳”少一点的。。
(∩_∩)O哈哈~在学校。。
我表喜欢和他们一起 跟他们相处了过后。。
我小学的朋友，都少了联络。。咳。。
对不起哦。。少了根我小学的朋友聊天了。。多数只跟Angela,佩奇他们而已。。
真是很抱歉。。嘻嘻。。

It's already holiday now..the holiday this time
makes me feel a little sad..
i don't know why..maybe is because i miss **...
but my heart,** cant receive it...why must i think of ** again??
it will just make me more pain...
that day,i ask **..** like "her"..right?** say..don't know..
we have already argued..i can't see any miracles now..
and..miracle won't appear at my life forever..
the arguement we have this time..is the longest between us..
i don't know why ** just can't forgive me...
now..a guy which have no relationship with me say he like me
and wants me to be his gf..
i say i don't want..before the day ** forgive me..
i won't think anything else..
is the thing i do now,stupid?maybe it's really stupid..
but its for myself..it's worth...

got some of my friends ask me..why i like **..i say i don't know..
maybe because of feel..
when i saw **,i will be nervous..like i don't know what to do..
when i saw ** smiling..i will be happy..
but when i saw ** angry or sad,i will be unhappy too..
but when i am sitting by my friends,when i happy or unhappy,
they will make me very happy..
a thousand of thank you to my friends..
thhank you,Alisa,Gigi,Carmen,Connie and Soo Ling...
these are the friends that make me happy every time..
still got others..but their "job" is more lesser then these friends...
haha o(n.n)o at school..
i more prefer to be together with them..
after we get along with each other..
i ignored my primary school friends T.T haiz...
so sorry to them...
i chat more lesser to them now...the most is only Angela and Joey..
really very sorry..hehe..

好了。。这就是我这一次开始 新系列的Post..wakaka..
ok..this is the new version of my blog post from now on..wakaka..


+~+ChaoZ+~+
+~+XiiaoDaii+~+

I'm back~

okayz~~hello out thr~~I'm back wif the name if XiiaoDaii^^

*Dai means sumting lik stubborn in chinese,I m lik that*ok..well..although these

days r wif a lot of problems bt..well~~my exams are all finishXD

n now back to blog,fb,fs,msn,online games n SMS..haha..

ok well ntg special in skul juz sum arguing wif frenz n lots of fun wif my classmates..

n a lil mad wif my x classmates...n..i chg myself in sumting..secret..

im nt gonna tell u unless u r my very very very best friend*

until now..juz 2 of my classmates noe it*

well these days im quite sad..quite mad..quite happy..=X

*wad feelings do i hav thr@.@"*well skul...hmm..fun things happen between me n my frenz..

oh yah..holiday is coming..WOO-HOOOO!!n tats the time for.................INTERNET!!!GAMES!!!hahahahahaha...

n during tat time my dad is so nt gonna skol me for playing comp all day long..

cuz i everyday do it...haha..well for the one hu gt play wlo,dragonica,sdo-x...

well..IM BACK IN THR TOOOOO~~~*nt a gud news heh..*

well i noe this is quite a long post..cuz u noe..long time no...post...

so,long is juz aiight..haha..well..my kai gor..he is at Singapore now..

i miss him T.T..n one of my kai gor in kwang hua..

he will b sitting for SPM soon..n..my gor gor in sdo-x..

is alwayz calling me to play sdo==

n my real gor gor..work+study+play..*@.@"'i dunno wads this@.@*

well..he treats me quite gud these days..

n he already noe hw to drive...

i mean..he gt his driving license..

n he will b fetching me outta skul for Monday n Thursday..

the rest is my auntie..*senior's mother*n..well...if u all notice..

my signature down thr will chg too~~haha..k lar..

this is really a QUITE long post..

                                                                       +~+Adiosa+~+
                                                                      +~+XiiaoDaii+~+